I freaking hate job interviews. Well I don't hate the interview per se because I have no problem chatting on about how awesome I am and how fab I am to work with. But I hate the waiting around afterwards to find out if I have got the job and I am currently waiting on two! One which promised to let me know BEFORE CHRISTMAS - I realise that this probably means that I haven't gotten the role but I did email to check and they said that they haven't made up thier minds yet. Come on people, how hard can it be. You either want to work with me or someone else as you advertised the role. So that means you know you want someone at least.

I also hate that job interviews aren't even about who has the best skills. I learnt that sometimes you just have to go with who feels right. So I can sell myself and my abilities but they may go for someone else who happened to wear red that day, or said a funny joke.

The one I went for yesterday I really, really want. So of course that means I won't get it. le sigh.

In other news I have three days of childcare for the beast, but no job to cover the costs. I just had to take the childcare and hope that a job would be forthcoming otherwise I will go back on the waiting lists. I have been on the waiting lists for over a year and have got only one day at any of the twelve local child care centres. The other days are with a family.

Having children makes life very difficult really especially since our beast woke up at 4.45 again this morning. Doesn't she know that sleep is good.

Life but not as we know it

Well now Miss Z is sleeping through the night, and taking nice long day naps I'm not too sure what to do with myself. I am getting really bored just hanging around the house doing housework and don't really have loads of money now I am not working. It is so hard to find things to do everyday that don't involve spending heaps of filthy lucre. As I don't have loads of mum friends in Melbourne there are large parts of most days where it is just Miss Z and me. While she is the sweetest thing her conversation, which consists of Mama, what's dat and dog, isn't really very edifying. I can't really blog very much as Miss Z loves to bang on the laptop, or just hover very close. What do other Mothers do with their time?

Miss Z's new favourite thing is getting her food and rubbing it in her hair.

Also I thought breast feeding was meant to help me loose weight, I am eating normally and walking for at least half an hour everyday but my post baby weight loss has stopped at 20 kgs. I need to loose another 5 at least. What else should I do?

Blah

I didn't get a job that I really, kind of, wanted. Ho hum.

It was a great job that seemed to need my experience as well as my unused Honours and Masters degree, but I think it was full-time and I don't really want to leave Z in child care five days a week.

Isn't it strange how things change. I was certain before I went on maternity leave that I would be bored and ready to return to full-time work after six months. It is now ten months and I can't see myself in full-time work for a couple of years. Also we have to try for a second baby.